I totally agree. My life totally sucks right now because I love a porn addict. I have to leave but I don't want to because I still love him so much. But I can't take the same pain, week after week. There is no end in sight. Eventually it will kill the love. I love sex but it is hard to even get it from him any more, and he doesn't seem that into it. After he has been downloading porn all day long, I don't want to have sex with him anyway. Honestly I don't even want to be around after that. Even if he could perform which most of the time he cannot even get it up because he is desensitized, and when he can he CANNOT cum. I have tried everything to stay relevant, even watching porn with him, so that he is able to complete. But after downloading hundreds of women last week, I just don't know if I can go on. Why? I see nothing for me in this future. I cannot enjoy his desire for other women. I know he has no love for them, I know it means nothing to him. But it means something to me. I don't mind if he masturbates. I don't care if he fantasizes or uses erotic stories for that. You know, men were fine before TV, cable, and the internet. I don't want to have sex with someone who is turned on by someone else. Honestly it feels like you are being used. It's just gross. I know I have to end it, but it really hurts. I have tried to make it work, but in the end I am just suffering. I simply cannot be happy. After this relationship I feel like maybe I just can't even be with a man.