AWWW. WHAT CAN ONE SAY? I SO HEAR YOU & FEEL SO BAD YOU HAVE TO LIVE LIKE THIS IN YOUR 40'S. I GOT SICK AT 57 & ENDED UP GETTING MARRIED AT 62; IT WAS A REAL STRUGGLE!! AFTER 7 YRS, I FEEL HE FIALLY ''ACCEPTS'' CFS & BELIEVES I AM TRULY SICK. I DON'T REALLY RECOMMEND GETTING MARRIED WHEN ILL, ALTHO THERE MAY BE MEN OUT THERE WHO CAN HABDLE THAT. FROM YOUR LETTER, I WOULD SAY U R HANDLING THINGS VERY WELL. I ACCEPT FINANCIAL HELP FROM MY DAUGHTER--VERY HARD ON THE PRIDE! AS I GET OLDER THINGS GET HARDER & I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOUR LIFE BEING OVER. BUT JUST HANG IN THERE. FEELING SAD PASSES & WHO KNOWS WHAT MAY HAPPEN DOWN THE ROAD? I PRAY YOU WILL FIND A VERY SPECIAL FRIEND TO DO THINGS WITH. AS FOR YOUR PARENTS, JUST LET THEM FEEL THEY R IMPT & HELPING U IN THIS DIFFICULT TIME!! BLESSINGS FROM ALBERTA, CANADA.